Let’s welcome
Raymonde to the Scribbler.
It is her first visit as our guest and we are happy to share the SBTS of her novel.
Read on my
friends.
Raymonde Stella Savoie was born in July of 1952 and
grew up on the family farm in Saint-Maurice, New Brunswick. Surrounded by
forests and streams, she learned the language of trees and wildflowers as a
teenager, the skills of which were put to good use when she obtained her Plant
Scientist Diploma later on in life.
An avid reader and journal keeper since the age of
sixteen, Raymonde escaped into the written word whenever she could. This led to
a fascination with her night dreams, which she also recorded faithfully.
Growing an extensive repository of inner stories became second nature,
initiating a search for self-knowledge. Thus, she found her own unique writing
voice to provide an outlet for her discoveries.
Her first book Dreaming The Child Self Whole is the
result of several years of those discoveries, both exhilarating and
devastating, but all necessary for the growth Raymonde’s unconscious demanded
through her dreams. She lives in Moncton, NB, and is now working on her second
memoir, along with creating abstract art pieces and art journals to contain
more recent dreams.
Title: Dreaming the Child Self Whole
Synopsis: I’m not usually radical, so I guess
writing this book has been the most radical action of my whole life. This
memoir speaks for me because I couldn’t speak up whilst, at the age of six and
seven, I was being sexually abused. Since then, my dreams have guided me on a
sometimes crooked, sometimes straight, path toward finding peace and healing I
could not have imagined at the time. This book is the culmination of years of
journaling and dreams that kept me from unravelling at the seams.
This memoir may speak for others who have undergone the same suffering
and never told anyone about it, as I delayed telling for lack of courage,
support and opportunity. May it be different for the reader!
May the girl and woman who reads this have the courage to reach out and
seek help when she needs it. For she must realise and truly believe: she is not
alone.
The Story Behind the Story: When I
researched “healing from childhood abuse,” I found a number of brave souls who
had written their story on how they had dealt with the devastating
after-effects commonly suffered by abuse survivors. My journey thus far had
been full of denial and addictions, but when it came down to my book’s subject,
I knew from the start that it had to be about dreams, first and foremost, or
else the whole project would be for naught.
My journey from being a hard, aggressive person to an empathic artist
took eleven long years of alternatively fighting and accepting my dreams,
labouriously journaling my childhood pain and transforming it all into the
written words to which I hoped my readers would relate. Judging from the multiple responses to my
book, many women do relate, even if they have not gone through this exact
experience.
Dreams have always fascinated me and though I knew they were important
when I started writing my story, I didn’t realise just how much until an
earth-shattering revelation came from being able to understand the recurring
dream that had haunted me all my life. This dream informed me of a
psychological condition – a complex – that had been with me since the abuse,
but of which I had been until then, totally unaware. This momentous event catapulted me into deep
research, deciphering my dreams, studying analytical and archetypal psychology,
art therapy, and doing divination with feminine-based cards. With all my energy
concentrated into one sphere of occupation, I endeavoured to write a book about
my experience and understanding dreams as symbols of deep transformation. The
book, and my dreams, changed my life, and healed me in profound, unconscious
and positive ways, for which I am truly thankful.
Website: Please go HERE.
A question before you go, Raymonde:
Scribbler: What is the ideal spot for you when you write your stories? Music in the background or quiet. Coffee or tequila? Messy or neat?
Raymonde: When I’m writing in my studio, I have the choice between a computer table, an art table or a journal table. I can sit at all three in one day to compose a story, work on a painting, or jot nots for a chapter. I find that moving around my studio gives me inspiration and helps change perspective on whatever I’m writing or working on at the time. It has to be early morning and quiet, with only the wild birds in my backyard for vocal company. No caffeine, just rooibos tea, and I have piles of books, notes and scribblers everywhere. So yes, my studio’s a bit messy. This is my world, my writing, art world.
An Excerpt from Dreaming the Child Self Whole, from Chapter 17.
I can put on a brave front when I want to.
I’ve gotten good at the art of duplicity, being and feeling one thing on the
inside while exhibiting a totally false façade on the outside. This is how I
survive now. My unconscious twins thrive in this environment of make-believe
and wishing and hoping, but their nefarious influence is slowly gnawing at my
insincerity as a Ground Hog does at spring roots.
Unbeknownst to me consciously, I am going
through a psychic shift as I sit every morning to write. Most of the time, I’m
in a frenzy to get my message out. Words and sentences surge up from the
depths, only slightly hinting at the still-unresolved anger buried there, but
which I ignore steadfastly. I can’t afford to unleash anything volatile lest it
come between Peter and I. My old friend denial holds back the flood, protecting
my ego from the knowledge of not living my authentic self’s desires, and it sits
there like a hardened cap on an old volcano. Then, at times, I find I can’t
write a single word. Little by little, the purpose for my book – to tell my
story – which originally got me started at this project in the first place has
morphed into an obligation to fund our dream of building an earth house. The
story I’m writing has taken on too many generalities, inclusive of others’
stories, which act as a blanket to suffocate my own. Or is it to obliterate it
altogether?
And thanks to all out readers and visitors.